Christian Author & Muser
I am not arrogant enough to think that I have it all right, that I know the answers, or that I have the power to change hardened hearts and minds. My hope in writing out my story is that it will resonate with white people who are confused, softened, starting to question long-held beliefs. And [...]
November 9th is a hard day. The anniversary of my mom’s sudden death two years ago brings renewed heartache with it, and it is just… hard. No words are ever going to be strong enough, so I’m going to stop ransacking my brain to find the right synonym. It’s just hard. And it seems so [...]
It was October 1997, and I had just turned thirteen. The red ink at the top of my English homework was life-changing in a way that Mrs. Padgett never could have known. “Wow! … You have a talent with words!” I don’t remember my first reaction when I read that statement. Reading it now, my [...]
Today's Appointment I received great news today at my oncology appointment, but only after surviving a few breathless, tense moments as my doctor read through some lengthy notes from the radiologist who examined my CT scan. How my appointments usually go: Dr. Reddy walks in, shakes my hand, and sits down at the computer. We [...]
"And these words, 'You shall not be overcome,' were said very loudly and clearly, for security and comfort against all the tribulations that may come. He (Jesus) did not say 'You shall not be tormented, you shall not be troubled, you shall not be grieved,' but he said, 'You shall not be overcome.' God wants [...]
I can't believe it is already May 1st. My residents here in Martin Hall are packing up, and over the course of the next few days, they will finish their finals and head out toward summer adventures. Sentimental tears have filled my eyes several times recently. We have been through a lot together! Most of this building [...]
I am raising my hands, but they are shaking. I am trying with all my might to pray, but through my lack of words, God tells me to rest. And tonight, I am reminded of two friends who told Moses to rest and held his arms high when he could not do it for himself. [...]
This morning, I have been reminded of God’s goodness. Nothing obviously special has happened today, but there have been several subtle, gentle ways that he has spoken to me. There are few things I love more than starting my morning with a cup of tea and looking out my kitchen window. (Even while writing that, [...]
Tonight was the night that it finally sank in. Lying in the semi-darkness, my hospital room lit by SportsCenter and medical monitors, it no longer feels like the out-of-body experience of the last month and a half. Something about the IV in my left hand, the drain removing fluids from the right side of my [...]
It's the question I have been asked most often in the last few weeks. How are you really doing? The most honest answer I can give you is that I feel a little different each day. Mostly I feel peace, but there are always bits of shock, joy and fear mixed in. What changes periodically is how heavily I [...]